When i was younger all i used to do was slice my flesh away Let this bloody river turn this ocean to a tidal wave To drown out all the agony and wash it straight into a shallow grave Because I fought against the pain but it's the only thing I ever craved I hated life- there is no good or evil just a sea of gray So I'm cutting down and shooting up when someone's in my fuckin way The dieties they want me dead, the governments want us to pay But I'll live to die another day, so everythings O-fuckin-Kayyyyy We've all got our ways to cope I'm hanging from this noose of dope Love is dead, there is no hope I'll choke myself with coping rope Every time this song will play It takes me back to bitter days For in my hart she'll always stay Where memories dont fade away I grew up with a rig inside my brain the vatos say we locos Not as loco as the system till at a show I overdosed Chillin on this coping dope is falling up the steepest slope But it's my only answer until me and apathy eloped This psychedelic killing kiss, We prey to greed i never miss A catastrophic emptiness, Embrace its bliss in this abyss So take salvation off my guest list, I'm more alive just taking risks I like breakin shit and I like staying pissed Wearing this anguish on my sleeve To give this world a reason to grieve This Blackhart nihilistic creed Is the only reason I still breath In this hell we arent alone Cuz we're all sinners casting stones Cut your niche and build a home Or name that barstool your new throne We've all got our ways to cope So I chose razor blades and dope Love is dead, there is no hope I'll choke myself with coping rope Every time this song will play It takes me to those brighter days For in my hart she'll always stay Where no one can take her away!

I cant believe it's come to this I once thought myself a pacifist Now I'm at war with everyone Now I'm the one that holds the gun A tree fell in the woods I heard It left a splinter in my hart If the pen is mightier than the sword Then why can't I write these tanks apart? Twice a soldier, once a bard We drink so we cant think this hard But dont, despair- my only friend Someday, I'll see myself again I dont need a reason to hate the world I dont need an excuse to love myself So when you hear the words I speak I hope you find the bliss you seek Now, who's to say that it won't end like this? And, for the record, I'm still anarchist But everyone's at war with me That's my story and history I've flown away or so you've heard But I'll find my way back like a bird If the pens are mighty as our swords Just watch me slice apart these words But every stones been turned it seems And underneath, resided dreams Nightmares aside, we hide, or cast away Reclaimed and judged by light of day I dont need a reason to hate myself I dont need an excuse to love the world So when you hear the words I scream I hope you see the future is your dream

Nothing to live for, yet so much to say This existential paradox grows larger every day Lamenting repercussions of the seismic hart I lay In, to abscond with revelations- I don't have to be this way So much to die for with my values turning grey With a closet full of skeletons from demons that I slay Lycans by moonlight- lament every single ray As the facets of existence reap a deified decay Slaughtering the martyrs to detonate their glory Ascending immortally; ignite their never ending story These altruistic blades to shave an apathetic fuzz Queries chide the sting of life while relishing its buzz Inquires of rivalry- there's no place left to stay Where the bullets like the cats in alleys always seem to stray Lycans by moonlight- lament every single ray As the facets of existence wilt in deified decay

We're breaking out, of this place Not staying to waste, I need my escape Or it's too late, and I'm running away And making a bed of peace where I can go lay Not be disturbed, by words l've flown away I'm high off the earth Like a bird, haven't you heard, Im searching what you cant afford Cuz I'm not a part of your corrosive culture I'm trying not to burn in this lake full of sulfur I'll always be rebel when there's something to fight for Not food for the vultures cuz I'm too fuckin hardcore I hate my state, and their debates Get too irate to stay, now can you relate? Fuck all fate, I'm making my own destiny Its all fake, yea what they say So I'm breaking into my escape today Yea there's a place, I can chase Leave a trail of bliss in my wake to taste Cuz this is your life, not a race So keep it great go live it your way (& B U) Cuz I dont wanna be another anarchist anomaly Or just another druggie who cant handle reality A necrotizing zombie in this brain dead assembly I'll live for more, if you don't get my analogies When I was a teen, I learned the enemies' anatomy And then one day I cut the A into my arm for autonomy And I wear it to this day in my flesh and my mentality Should it ever fade I gonna carve it right back into me I've got an allergy to ravaging fallacy Or maybe just to tyranny and government conspiracy

Ever since you were born The worlds been a little different you're a butterfly effectively earths your sphere of influence So when we interact our actions become intact In fact impacting others is the reason why you act And for that I go to bat for the amenities they lack So as the ball's careening towards me I still wont ever turn my back On my empathy addicting me like smack as our world is turning black and Reality and values start to crack I may never see your face but I know the human race So when I say Im feeling you dont say my feelings are misplaced once a simple place complex design is falling grace fully Watch the ground get far away now with every step you take Like the ripples in a lake that turn to waves we're in the wake Of some thing great our whispers shake but who can tell when it will break Im sorry if im too loquacious but it's something i cant fake But you can't say I didnt warn you when you're trapped inside the quake Who will save us when My butterfly dies What can my little butterfly do to keep this world from eating you Flap your wings and Fly away friend Butterfly, butterfly now what can we do When we all create storms why should i submit to you Entropy makes a jump, kinetic energy moves Some call it a theory, but I call it my proof When the string starts to slip we can make it a noose Over, under, and round so it'll never get loose Now we're hanging around just singing the blues and if we ever come down i got tussin to boost Im just floating along, Im just enjoing the cruise So if you're coming alone, you got nothin to lose What can my little butterfly do to keep this world from hating you? I cant paint a clearer picture, Does my message match my diction? What will happen when you fracture? Time will rupture halting action x2 Me and my butterfly we know what to do Unfurling our wings creating winds of truth It's been long overdue, but I'm sure you knew too This isnt new, Iv had a feeling you've been picking up clues So we gone blow away clouds until the sky turning blue Something you had to transfuse, in lue of blood I drew Butterfly butterfly crawl up out that cocoon So I can see how you grew before our world is consumed I cant paint a clearer picture, Does my message match my diction? What will happen when you fracture? Time will rupture halting action What can my little butterfly do to keep this world from hating you? Spread your wings and Fly away friend

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Here you come, crawling back, like I always knew you would But I'm not having you now; is that understood? I may have loved you once, but that time is long passed What a painful loss it was but now my wound is healed at last I knew you were my angel, until you fell from grace Now every tear you shed brings a smile to my face The lies were all too real; your love was all too fake You thought that you could crush me? I dont have a heart to break You showed me that your love is worthless Sucked my death out with a kiss Mark my words you will not be missed When I bleed solace from my wrists Now you can spit your apologies at the walls, they bounce off But you know you were mistaken now you've got to take the loss And you may be sincere; too late, now nobody cares I will only come back to haunt your blackest nightmares We would still be together; if you had only tried harder Now you turn your back and walk away, go cry to another You showed me that your love was worthless Sucked my death right out through a kiss Burn my words you will not be missed When I bleed solace from my wrists

When it all comes down in a gamma ray burst With the stars blowing up and scorching out the earth Is it really gonna matter who's checking out first If there's one grave left and there ain't a fuckin hearse We can't save what's not worth having But a celestial event from a so called heaven Can deliver peace and free this pit of penetrating hell into our haven You won't see it this will end it We can't stop it this will end it It will kill you this will end it, this will end it, it's the ending There's no running this is coming Shiver as your hart starts drumming Now sweat is forming, thoughts are racing Adrenaline? If it's death you're chasing Tuning out and changing stations Just think of it as a long vacation It's something like a freedom invasion Suboxone for this heroin nation To brighten up the black we're facing Subjective view to a little persuasion Breaking through its fuckin amazing Pheonix rise from this occassion When it all comes down to a gamma ray burst Will there be enough blood shed to quench war's thirst This decadent blessing comes with a curse When the sky falls down and purges the earth And it all goes down to who got there first Is this arrogant shell just becoming our hearse? Not for me they will have to take me with force I'll riot till I'm dead screaming murder till im horse like... This won't take me, you cant have me I'm not leaving till I'm ready They can't take me, so they hate me You won't make me, you'll die trying Welcome to the sky is falling down To pin your pitiful soul against the boiling molten ground Rally up, revere this haunting sound Of a hierarchy that's fucking tumbling down Loot your chaos, in the street And best of all there's no police Pray I've stocked mercy should we meet Or lust for death, and bleed defeat Oh can't you feel the xtc? You on the edge? Well I'm out my seat You dreaming deep on dragons teeth? We walking death and on our feet Stay crackin heat -pop- duz your hart beat? Beauracracy? No disease for me! We're infamous for anarchy Cuz when you're all gone we're plagued with peace It'll all burn out like a gamma ray burst And we're just dead without a hearse With no men left to mourn a corpse Embers to ashes and powders to dust And should we see this through to the end We can lite it back up and burn again Like a civil disobedient trend For a dysfunctional ordinance that we must mend Is it that he's onto something? Or are they right and I'm just crazy Let's all reign from ashes solace Rise and ride our utopian phoenix Wrought with anguish that you cant hide Closed your eyes and gouging mine Residing in your lies we've all imbibed They've shut these eyes- I'll gouge them wide But we can save what's not worth loving For this reason we're still laughing I can take this to the grave and I'll rest smiling 2010 BLACKHART RECORDS *now, 100 points for anyone who can actually tell me what a gamma ray burst is*

I used to wonder if love existed, now I know it’s only dead So I’ve got this zombie clawing its way from the inside of my head Down the street I’ll black my wrists to gash a window into my abyss Across the highway I’ll ball a fist to roll the dice where vipers hiss As ventricles begin to rust, gash my hart and watch it gush Leave me to my sanguine lust, just pull the plug and let it flush We’re on the eve of judgment day, so scorch the squalor into decay Blow the embers in my face, the smoke carries our souls away Today is winter, the dusk approaches fast Yesterday was summer and the morning of the crash In the evening we Fall into the weather of our past Tomorrow gives you sunshine, but it only yields me ash Gash me till there's nothing left, and bleed me out I’m filled with death And if you didn't do it right, I curse you with my dying breath Wrath becomes my favorite sin, and darkness is my greatest ally Blinded by the blackness within shield me from the light outside If you don’t get it, don’t you worry It’s just more esoteric poetry Today was winter, the dusk approaches fast Yesterday is summer now I’m cleaning up the crash In the mourning we Spring out to weather up a past Tomorrow gives you sunshine,it yields me another gash… What’s the use of fucking insight, When your sight reveals nothing inside? I’m following the blood-trail to a safer part of hell to hide My hart has chained itself with gashes To a place with angels weeping ashes Where the smoke can watch the embers bleed But there are no souls left on which to feed…

Amerika, the son of hate- the poster child of greed Immaculately spawned and blossomed from a demonic seed Terrorize the third world with their histrionic deeds Emancipated the masters- slaves were never really freed Liberate us from the lies- they'll tell you anything But we obliterate what you can't disguise because I don't believe Oppressed and infested I just detest this pessimistic breed Nothing less than pests- molesting imperialistic weed Helpless souls in need- kids starving, and yet they choose to feed Into this nihilistic, narcissistic, so sadistic creed I sure as shit ain't Christian, but I'm blessed I must confess They've built this nest of suffering- it's where they get their rest Digress to test injustices, the world has lost its way I guess that Ezra said it best- we're living INDK It's oxymoronic that chronically among the dying lives And ironically in this moronic culture the living dead will thrive Bide the right inside- our bliss amidst the lies we hide Wear pride outside, but we can't drive- we're on a broken ride Follow this society- it's sure to only lead Into materialistic, parasitic, war addicted greed Profiting from poverty is nothing that we need It's just their nihilistic, narcissistic, damn sadistic creed The fucking condescending, never ending, evil deeds, So, come grace our place in poison- bleed into the toxic breed This is all we reap, when pain is what they sow If this is all you see, then less is what you know From a bloody seed, a wounding tree will grow I ain't afraid to speak the truth or wear it on my sleeve I breathe to beat the noose of atrophy this cuntry weaves So I'm never taking back Anarchy Key or FTT Cuz the red and white and right- their plight will never let us be Conditioning the denizen to serve a hierarchy I'm a law dividing citizen, cuz their cause is never me You'll never rise they're in your mind and eyes so you don't see It's no surprise that most don't try to seek their liberty Hypnotized and don't know till you're thinking libertine Fuck magazines, bring beauty to life you've never seen Sing an optimistic song to clean this shit psychotic scene Bringing down their fucked neurotic, patriotic, robotic team Follow this society- it's sure to only lead Us to this capitalistic, cash addicted, masochistic creed The world is full of hunger cuz the only thing that feeds Is just this nihilistic, narcissistic, damn sadistic greed Profiting from suffering- then everybody bleeds A condescending, never ending, limiting cycle we don't need But the future doesn't have to look a thing like history I know someday we'll all be clean from this sick mentality

Devoid of insight, mind the darkest diabolical diagnosis Digest this discerning diatribe against a mental health prognosis Deviation defines disorder then by default I suffer psychosis Necrosis treats neurosis? Nazis invented psychology, we know this! Close your eyes drive me through your head Your deviant thoughts I'll just circle in red We can fix your personality The DSM hates your mentality But we can work it out some day Those demons will all be cast away Let's make diamonds from the sand On a beach somewhere in alprazoland Down a winding staircase I suffered a slip Id was fruedian, but I dont Wundt a psychologist's tips They keep calling me back, their egos are supermassive To think that they treat me better than entactogen trips! Lets get one thing straight-You think like you, I think like me And I dont need no help coping from you nazis We're not mentally ill for seeing through your glass society We do our job curving the bell the world thrives on diversity Who are you to criticize, analyze the way my wounds have cauterized Try to see the world behind my eyes SURPRISE youre underqualified Society is variety, you're only worsening my anxiety And the benzos you're prescribing me dont constitute sobriety! Devoid of insight, mind the darkest diabolical diagnosis Digest this discerning diatribe against a mental health prognosis Deviation defines disorder then by default I suffer psychosis

Who knows where the sun goes? I looked for it and I almost froze Words come to blows As doves are turning into crows Are you ready to open your mind look and see that your apathy's digging our grave Think that you're living, youre not you're just dying, I'm watching you rot and decay If you make a bed of their venomous blades, on that mattress we all have to lay I guess what I'm trying to say at the end of the day we must go our own ways This isn't life This is a lie they've sold Oh what a sight To fly across the moon tonight If you waste your hours on hating the slaves How much longer can you stay awake? This water is vitriol we're raising the waves And the stakes drag you into the lake If we judge our worth on the money we make Then we're selling our souls to the bank Burning your mouth on the cookies you bake Then I guess we have culture to thank Are you ready to open your mind look and see that your apathy's digging our grave Think that you're living, youre not you're just dying, I'm watching you rot and decay If you make a bed of their venomous blades, on that mattress we all have to lay I guess what I'm trying to say at the end of the day we must go our own ways When you burn a bridge with the flames that you play with you're ignorant for you own sake It's violence you reap from the peace that you slay and we're all getting caught in the wake If you make a bed on these venomous blades, your tranquility becomes our prey I'll scream till I'm blue in the face and I faint or the day I've got nothing to say

OK! Now, what does all this mean to me? It's always been, well it doesn't have to be Just frying in reality- Is the story of our history An existential fallacy To catalyze better memories There's galaxies full of stars to see Flippin misery with ecstasy Change don't ever happen Till someone's asked a question And "That's the way it's always been" Ain't an answer but a prison Caged behind these walls of sin Come brake the bars and make it end Let's ask about oppression, or why we're in recession A lesson from the fallen- on our action we depend So here comes this abyss again The void don't miss, we're all falling in When the rays of light from truth can bend Not a grain of sand can you defend Cuz we're all falling in If this is how the world began Then why are we still fading in? If this is how it's always been I'll spare some change and make it end So, What the fuck is draining me? We'll ride this train to what will never be Smack this scene clean thinking free Tradition thriving will sink me deep This is not the only tree from broken seeds of dying breeds That will scar your soul and make it bleed until we see our victory Their values don't breathe shit from me They'll all suffocate in infamy Artists speak of what we dream As life will imitate TV That's the pain- it'll always bleed But it doesn't mean a fucking thing They didn't live the songs we sing Today no world order police or kings Rally up against the plight We'll all spare some change tonight Prevalence never made it right But here's something new and bright in sight! This is how its always been? I'll spare some change and make it end It's all fading in This is how its always been- Cuz no one's asking questions Corruption never starts to mend Until we're falling in with questions now

I once knew a girl by the name of Erin In a Maryland squat- played the violin Home baking ms contin into heroin Caught the dragon, now she dont have to care again it goes I scream, you dream, theyre all fiends for morphine I scream, you scream, we all lean for morphine I dream, you dream, we all fiend for morphine There was a man, we werent really close Turned moldy bread into toast, with hosts of opium ghosts Prone to bouts of prone festivities in an alley The night his eyelids closed (final dose), he whispered "finally" Load the barrel, when you inject Like every shot is russian roulette Raise the bet or fold the deck As that noose gets tight around your neck Twist the rope by chasing smoke 'round; I know dope- it aint no joke While we all cope and dread the day I pray on hope- Dont go that way (Not my friends, not that way)

Rue the night or lust the day That everything is in its place Silent hymns, to the sins we pray Alluding consonance in all its grace Breath plundered by her brumous clutch Hearts tattered, Impaled on a broken crutch The water's looking glass; Old scratch on his stool Nearest to the whirl; drawn in to the pool Greet the storm, when we arrive In the ocean tears won't dry Ask me why I'm still alive Answer krakens with why we cry Share a laugh, pour me a think I've found my home among bones that sink Ships to depths from which I seldom drink Of wells of inequated broken links! Just you drown me through that lake The drought at rest I'm wide awake Wrench my death and yield a quake Splinters echo when fragments break Dissonance in waves we face When grains of truth evade this place View wretchedness in paths we take To harmony left in our wake Don't you drown me in that lake The drought is resting, I'm wide awake So, wrench my death and yield a quake Splinters echo when fragments break Entombed by euphonies; embrace The wombs of eulogies, encase Their words in lustre, maim your stakes In opulence- forsaken aches

It's not a protest if it's peaceful Loot your chaos hurt some people Beyond the scope of good and evil Bloody riots make us equal Ride our demons into battle Bleed the moat and siege the castle Seize the tyrants prep the gallow Oppression is deep so their graves are shallow Our rage will grow We will overthrow Bloody riots! If violence aint the answer then you're askin stupid questions Evisceration is the only way I take out my aggression Flames and twitching corpses is what we see in all directions And this blazing anarchy will be the death of this infection The beauty of a mutiny is the birth of insurrection Allowing autonomy to bring a painful death to this oppression For are liberties are slain we need a freedom resurrection I get down with dissidents and we dont give a fuck bout your elections! Fuck the police Fuck these honkies Fuck their money Fuck authority Start the coup just me and you, it's life or death, so what you gone do? We know the truth, I'll run and shoot to give the pigs the fuckin boot